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2007-10-04
Is she coming again. Will she beat me again. In nightmares she keeps on staring staight and true. It makes me weak.
Who are you to read my book. Who are you to make my heart crawling. You're running in the deep in me. Why don't you juz shut up and fuck me. Why don't you rape me then kill me and then bury me as a mercy. Why don't you give a damn. Once She caged me. She told me she loved me. While she laughed in my face. She just led me astray. She took my virtue. She took my innocence. I fell into the black hole of the black hole. I failed. I went to doc. I took pills. I told lies. I acted shows. I fucked up things. I confessed. I fixed up the mistakes she made. I've been trying so hard. Now she's coming again. Lately I hardly eat. I hardly sleep. I hardly do things. I'm dying in my bed. I burned my sheet with cigarettes. I get thinner. I put all my shirts on then took em all off. I tried on skinny jeans. I poured coffee on em. My Buddhism bracelets' broken. My Cross necklace's broken too. I replaced a chain. It's kinda short. It hurts my neck. One of my ear piercing bleeds. I lost a small diamond earring. However I make new friends. I accompany old friends. Meanwhile i talk only to the persons i like. I ignore my cellphone most of the times. Still I laugh when watching comics. I cry when hearing sad songs. I draw expressions when typing texts and emails. I read friends' blogs. I buy myself cookies and choclates. I sang at KTV for whole night long. I'm even going to Formula1 circuit. I just forgot some emo gigs. SO WHAT THE FUCK IS HAPPENING ON ME, FOR GOD'S SAKE??? I wish she's not coming. Perhaps i'm juz so scared of her. Nothin's really happening it's all illusion it's all confusion. One baby to another says, i'm lucky to have met you. I don't care what you think unless it's about me. It is now my duty to completely drain you. A travel through a tube and end up in your infection.
Chew your meat for you. Pass it back and forth. In a passionate kiss. From my mouth to yours. Coz i like you.
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